(for mosita, on her birthday)
in the beginning i would have used terms like, 'out of my league';
'too cool';
et. al.
but in subsequent years
especially the "misspent" ones in her tiny run down apartment;
off Placer;
drinking copious amounts of cheap beer;
smoking certain amounts of tobacco (me) and more (her);
it occurred to me, it wasn't a question of social standing but rather
a difference in the paradigms of our philosophies;
while her world was still available for exploration;
adventure;
wonder
;
mine had already become stagnant;
a place of certainty and absolute decision.
and so now, on the advent of her birthday;
i realize that she remains still in a place i will never understand;
in a world that is hers alone.
adventure.
wonder.
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